How does it feel like to be pushed around? Being youngest amongst most of the people around you, being the weakest piece of crap everyones takes advantage of.

Its not fun at all. I get bashed at for being clumsy cos i often break things and spill things and spoil things. I get bashed at for following the wrong insructions, and being 'deaf'. I get bashed at for being stubborn, not liking to follow instructions. So much more, i could even write a book. Heh.

Its like every corner of my life is like a fragile piece of glass, yknow? i knock onto something, i break the 'rules' (even the simplest things in my life,im not allowed to do) and i have to face the consequences.

What have i done to put myself in this situation? The state of my life is unbearable.

Strict mother, strict father, strict sister, strict brother and strict boyfriend.

I dont know how long i can take this any longer. They say you should never let anybody think that they own you. But how can i?

Maybe im just born to be miserable?

Your good old happy days are long gone from your life, sars. :'(

This is my super old blog from 2 years ago oh my god its such a bliss blogging here again. Ah at last i figured my password.

Lifes a mess in between these 2 years. I never should have come to this school. I met all the wrong people, my studies dropped even more compared to primary.. ive changed so much.. none of it good i tell you.

Its coming to 2013 and i dont know what to expect. I dont know how life will be in that year. I dont know who are going to be my friends next year. I dont know who are my teachers. What ill go through. I dont know where ill be.

So much to expect. But i bet all of it will be just as bad or even worse than how this year went.
I dont know man. Its so hard to express myself. And you my blog, is the only place i can say what i want and vent anything i want to.

Ive lost friends. Gained friends. Forgot people. Know new people.
People from 2 years ago are totally gone. Hey all the people from all those posts below, i no longer know all of them. Not even one. We're just all strangers now.

Man i dont know where to start ranting my guts out about the past two years. Maybe later, maybe tomorrow. Ill see you soon..

Prize presentation day.
will miss the school hall >:
my lovely general office >: (wtf blur!)
My form teacher >:

Maisarah, The girl who makes me laugh like hell ALWAYS.

Ashlyn, Super chio girl, Twin sis >:

LOL SHAMS & HAFIZ DANCING :o

6 Respect 2010' >: (half of the class)

Haqif, Bff >:

Kelly Ho!

♥♥Kenneth & Shawn Ang♥♥

BENTLEY BFFF!

M.A.A.A >:

bennn ~

My beloved school ~

__ ROTT IN HELL BITCH.

Ashlyn with her arm on my table ._.

last time i'll see my class so enthusiastic.

Broken Chair i had fun playing with T_T

School is officially over.

Prom was Okay, i didnt eat the buffet though.

I broke down crying alllllllll the way home & even at home, ha.

didnt get to say goodbye to some people... ):

But its okay, we all can hang out again right?

Results is in 6 days, and thats the last day of wearing the epps school uniform,

feeling fucking proud to be an eliasian, seeing all friends/classmates/teachers/staff,

stepping into the school compound for 2010 & etc etc.

honestly i wish i could rewind to be a primary 6 student again. >: how i wish..

I will really really miss every single person in primary 6 batch 2010 ):

not forgetting juniors too.

So, last day was uh, kinda pretty fucked up actually. i got really pissed.

but use your hands campaign was fun. instead of cleaning, we went out of the class acting like

total retards ~

playing with window panels, having fun with a broken chair, rofl-ing, throwing abandoned books

at each other, throwing the abandoned pair of jeans at each other,

spraying water at one another, chasing each other & so much more >:

i wish i could rewind those times... but i can't >:

class gathering next next weekk.>

i miss Ashlyn, Jasmin, Maisarah, Huda, Alyn, Atiqah, Afiqah, Bentley, Junji, Cindy, Siew Jin,

Charlene, Haqif, Ameer, Khidir, Hedy, Harith, Kenneth, Shawn Ang, Mdm Aini, Rika.. etc etc

OH SO VERYYYYYYY MUCH ALREADY!

k.i.t guys >:

Labels: I love Elias Park ):

Bentley's Mask For Prom
Haqif Sitting At My Place And Hacking My Pencil Case -_-

SHAMMSSS :D

Swee Boon! brb dying x)

JUSTINNN!

wooaaaaaah, niceee :x

ARIFF!! Awesome Friend :D

Sleepin Beauty :D

Thiang.

BEN BEN :D

Bff ;D

STRESSSS ~~

Huda and maimai playin stress @ MB

Afiqaaaah!

Francescaaa chiooo!

LOLFAIL

grass was friggin muddy >:

shh.

I MISS YOU CINDY D:

Haqif & Harith <:

ASHLYNN MA' TWINNYY!

SiewJinCindyCharlene<:

Afm bff♥

Sorry for not updating this blog for a veryyyyyyyyyyy long time ROFL.

I am super duper extremely active on tumblr tho <:

Been realllllllllllllllllll busy with life.

Last day of school tomorrow + Prom. Damn excited OMGAAAAWDD!!!

Well, not literally the last day, on friday i have to go to school for the Prize Presentation thing.

Soooooooooooo Those Photos are just some stuff from school/Marina Barrage/ Science Centre.

Im Sooooooooooo gonna miss everyone in Epps>:

7 more days till PSLE results are released. MIXED FEELINGGGSSSS TT_TT

Life's beeeeen Greaaaaaaaaaaaaaat well kinda.

Garage Sale in school Was uh, dot dot dot anyway. LOL.

Very Tiring -________-

Gonna play nerf fun tomorrow if bentley brings it ;D i've been shooting people AHAH.

Okaaaaaaaaaaay, i have no idea what to write about.

Will Update Soooonnnn ~

KHIDIR'S CAT!
Bro's Vans shoes got fucked by my cat. LOL.

SUPPPPPPPPPP ~~

FINALLY POSTING NYAHAHA.
PSLE is gonna be over REAAL soon! 3 subjects down, 1 moreee which is SCIENCE!
SOOOOO. PSLE english was okaaay.. Math was okaay. Paper 2 was challenging ~

Mother Tongue was Ok-ok. Aha, golongan kata was fucking hard. D:

The only word i understood was 'dengan'. LOL.
Anyway, its all a load off my mind. cant regret anything. coz i did my best :D

just hope to get 192 ~~

Hougang Sec - Im Aiming Fer Youuu! *grins at hashrie*

ohmyGAAWD. my phone's sim card got damaged. And i was like damn sadd.

Only can get sim card tomorrow/monday.

If i make my sim card on monday...i cant party with my girlfriends. UGHH.

Since PSLE is gonna be over soon, im gonna blog like everyday, Lol.

& im not putting a tagboard, coz i don't reply my Tags. Huhu ~

Okaay, i have no idea what to talk about anymore. HAHAH.

Will post on monday (:

Labels: 26 September 2010♥